It's time for a new start. It's time to put aside the old, the former life. Time to lose the fantasy and face the reality. To redefine truth, rediscover respect, possibly repair a relationship.
In the midst I don't want to let down my children, my Doodlebugs. My Monkeys. My reason for living and breathing right now.
I don't know what life holds now. I'm not sure what direction I will be taking and who I will become, this is a new world, a new way of life for me. Reality has tilted, I've slid across the floor, grasping for a handhold. . . right now I'm not sure I'll regain my grip or let go. Forever.
It wasn't supposed to be this hard. We were supposed to be a happy family. Damn the fact that you're human! You were my rock. I don't know if we can survive this.
All I can do is continue putting one foot in front of the other. And stop to breathe when I have the chance.
And maybe, you'll be welcome on this journey with me.
